Happy National Poetry Day.

The nights are long without you,
Life is darker too,
And i never even really had you as mine,
But that's just fine,
Because the time i spent with you,
When we had that special something,
Was worth a million relationships.
You were there,
When i needed someone to care,
And though we don't speak much now,
I'll never forget how,
How you rescued me,
And made me better.

- 4th October 2012

I'll Get There...

I miss the past,
The good times pass by so fast.
One minute I'm just a teen,
First kisses, first everythings,
Now I'm 'grown up', have to find my own way in life.
Have to make decisions,
Get on with things.
I look back now and it's all just a blur,
It's all gone so quickly,
I've been in love a few times,
I've had my heart broken,
And I've done some heart breaking.
Love doesn't get any easier,
No matter how old you are.
It's the same confusing battle between heart and brain.
School days pass by so quickly,
And you never believed them,
When they said they're the best years of your life,
You just wish them away,
And now - today,
I wish I could have them back again.
And I've made a few mistakes over the last few years or so,
Made plans, changed plans,
Failed myself.
But I got back up.
I'll make more plans,
Probably change more plans and fail myself again and again.
But I'll get there,
Wherever I'm meant to be,
I'll end up there eventually.

- 13th September 2012

(2 poems in 1 day?! Whaaat? I don't know what's happened to me!!)

Miss You

I haven't been writing much this year, just haven't had the inspiration. So this is the first poem i've written in months and months, i'm not too sure about it, the rhyming is a little forced in places. But at least i've finally written something!


If only I'd not been a fool,
We could've been a team,
You haunt me like a ghoul,
In all of my deepest dreams.

Looking back is bittersweet,
Memories of some of the best ever nights,
The amazing people I got to meet,
I love that city with it's bright lights.

You taught me so many things,
I handed myself over to you completely,
I was never asking for a ring,
Just a chance to prove how good we could be.

Now it's been a while since I saw your face,
And everything has changed since then,
I'm in an entirely different place,
And matching up to you is too much to ask of men.

Honestly, I am getting by fine,
I only wish love was as simple as Cinderella and her shoe,
And that you could be mine,
Because, after all I've been through, I still really miss you.

-13th September 2012

Drifts Away.

Huddled together on a cold winter's night,
Out and about to see the sights,
Driving around in your car,
Together we could've got so far,
Sitting outside a cafe smoking cigarettes,
With you I had no regrets.
And I always long to go back,
To being somebody's,
Belonging in his arms,
I thought I had all the time in the world,
Now I know that every second counts,
Don't take love for granted,
Because it drifts away,
If you don't cherish every moment,
You could regret it,
If they choose not to stay.

-17th January 2012

In My Heart, Burrowed Deep.

I'll never forget you,
I loved you for so long
I found it so hard to move on,
You were always on my mind,
You were with me all the time,
In my heart,
Burrowed deep.
Your poem was a promise
That you couldn't keep.
You said I was your number one,
Said I always would be,
But you moved on
I'm coming to terms with the past,
I know now that love like ours can't last,
But I don't, and won't ever understand,
Why you won't come with me, and take my hand,
I don't know how you can't look back,
And wish that we still had that
That love that lit up even the darkest of nights.

-15th January 2012

A Cold Winter Night.

The smoke is billowing all around,
And I cannot hear a sound.
The frost is glistening on the pathways,
And the car windows glitter too,
It's a cold winter night,
I zip my jacket up tight,
Revel in the sights,
The beautiful stars in the sky,
Everything's going to be alright,
I believe that tonight.

-15th January 2012

The Rush Of A Day's First Cigarette.

That lightness,
The dizzy unbalanced sense,
The rush of a day's first cigarette.
I sit in the sun,
Close my eyes,
Revel in my blank mind,
It's all red,
Such a pretty bright light
Behind my eyes.
Open upm
Wash the coffee down,
Wake up,
Stand up,
Get on with life.

-11th January 2012

The Flowers

The flowers were so beautiful,
They brought a warmth to my heart,
It was so sweet that he'd got up early,
To go and fetch them for me.
I wonder if the darkness was just there,
Under the surface,
Bubbling away,
I wonder if it may have all worked out one day
But I walked away
From the man who bought me roses,
Walked to the light I saw,
Now the light comes no more.
Do I miss him, or just miss love?
I'm not sure,
But part of me wishes I could go back,
Try a bit more.
But that warmth is gone,
I onnly get warmth in a cup of coffee now,
I look down,
In to my empty mug,
Void, full of nothingness.
Is this really what life is?

-11th January 2012